My heart breaks for Sandy Hook

As I sit here, my son, 4, is on the couch. His little tongue is sticking out as he concentrates on a reading game he is playing on the ipad. My daughter, 1, is carrying around one of her brother's hotwheels making "vroom" noises. The Christmas tree's lights illuminate the living room as we watch Sunday Night Football. It is a beautiful and picturesque moment for my little family of four.
And last Sunday, as we did practically the same thing - I took it for granted.
Tonight, I look at them and almost instantly tear up thinking about the senseless events that transpired on Friday.
There are 20 parents with kids not much older than my own, going through unimaginable pain.
I have been trying to come to grips with this tragedy since I first heard about the shootings early Friday morning.
It's like my brain can't process it right now.
It doesn't seem real.
I will never fully understand what drives someone to do something so horrific.
All I do know is someone has to be in a really dark place to shoot anyone - let alone 20 kids 7-years-old and younger.
 If I can find any solace from this horrible event is how heartwarming it is to see the stories that are emerging of the adults who risked everything - some paying the ultimate price - to save children.
Heroes inside Sandy Hook.
God bless those teachers and faculty members - every single one of them.

The down side

What does sting, is people already up in arms and debating everything from gun control to mental health.
Don't get me wrong - they're interesting and great topics for debate. But, in the perspective of the grieving families, these topics can wait ... at least a few days.
Instead of grieving for families, many work quick to voice their opinion on a wide variety of topics - from who is to blame to whether or not it could have been stopped.
I've seen the "take away all guns" argument
I've seen the old "guns don't kill people" argument.
I have seen the "sensationalized media is to blame" argument.
I've also seen an article that Westboro is planning on picketing Sandy Hook Elementary.
Westboro = not what Christianity is about

I do have strong opinions on all of the topics above ... but I will save them for another day. Maybe I will even share my own school shooting story when I do. But right now, I will grieve for the beautiful kids who lost their lives, as well as for the adults trying to save them.

One more thing

I saw this blog about a woman dealing with a child with behavioral issues. She has feared for her life and her family's. It kind of gives a perspective of the shooter's family. Before you try and judge anyone - always try to put yourself in their situation.

Here is a perspective on woman gives from possibly the mother of the shooters perspective.